Why does he talk to me, X asks me, has he ever answered that question? Does it help to talk? Not especially, he says, and what would it help anyway? He guesses it’s good to have had expressed something accurately for yourself, if not for anyone else, never mind beautifully. But has he expressed anything accurately? he asks. Has he expressed anything at all? Nothing, perhaps, except his inability to express himself, despite or because of his effort to be accurate. And that’s a thought that helps, he says, perhaps he has said something after all.
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I also saw a small part of the discussion on The Doctors today. Very imissrepve new treatment. It gives us cancer patients hope that there are new treatments all the time! I am a multiple recurrent soft cell sarcoma patient (53 yo Male). My first tumor (2005 was football size, obviously too large for this treatment). My recurrences,2007, 2009 (2) and 2011 have all been for smaller tumors. All tumors have been inside my chest cavity 3 of the recurrences required (or will require cardiothoratic surgery, I have a surgery scheduled for April 21st, ugh!). One recurrence (early 2009) was 2 small tumors just under the clavical near the lower throat which were able to be surgically resected wo a chest crack . Only 1 tumor involved any organ (late 2009, tumor attached to the heart. Damage to heart occurred during surgery and it was repaired during the same surgery, this was the only time I had to be on the heart lung machine). Other tumors were encapsulated and came out whole. I was given radiation treatment (UCSF) after the 2005 surgery and the 2007 surgery (which was 3 small tumors in the left-mid chest area), I was told it would probably do more damage than good after the 2009 surgeries and I didn’t push. My most recent tumor is between my heart and lung and very close to a major pulmonary artery. Hopefully that’s enough information to answer if in my case MRI Laser treatment might be a viable approach should I recur yet again. Avg span between recurrences has been 18 months. My late 2009 surgery has left me in chronic pain (nerve damage) which I am in the process (or have been) of treating (PT, various medications). Also, I am on a pacemaker (due to the heart damage during the late 2009 surgery) which I know is an automatic disqualification due to MRI being used. My pacemaker placement was more precautionary than anything and I believe that consideration could be made for removal of the pacer to treat the cancer and re-placement if it was again deemed medically necessary. Frankly I think/feel the risk of a non surgical treatment for the cancer that might finally kill it once and for all vs. any possibly needed pacemaker would be a risk I’d be willing to sign up for. Is soft cell sarcoma described above something that may fit this bill for this kind of treatment?Thanks for looking at this. I probably won’t catch the answer before my upcoming surgery as tomorrow is pre-op day. Regards, Darrel Foster